Busy minds needs to cool off
Hello and
welcome to another installation of my blog. This time I discuss a couple of
things, that I really enjoy, because I am very happy while doing them, but they
also calm my head, and I am able to just achieve total relaxation, which I
seldom can.
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| Mr. Ruffington - my personal hero. |
Hobbystuff!
I consider
myself quite nerdy in some regards. I love reading, playing games and
collecting, painting and playing with miniatures. That last part is especially
nerdy, but I don’t care, I love it. I play a couple of tabletop wargames called
Warhammer and Malifaux. While the games themselves are quite fun to play, it is
the collecting aspect of the hobby that I really love. Buying new miniatures
and painting them is just a fantastic hobby, which really needs to be
experienced to be appreciated. It takes time to learn and even longer to master
(which I haven’t), but the sense of pride you get from completing a piece is
something really special. Sometimes I can sit for eight hours straight just
painting and listening to music, and the time just flies by. I would argue that
everyone should indulge themselves in some form of hobby activity, because it
can really balance you when your life seems insufferable. It’s expensive
though, but can you put a price on inner peace? Yeah. The makers of those
miniatures sure can. Bastards.
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| Some pieces, I've done. |
Walking!
Seen by
many as a trivial thing, I find it extremely relaxing. Either on your own or
with friends, walking just calms the mind somehow. When I walk alone, I just
listen to music on my mobile, and just wander off. It’s great, because no one disturbs
you, and you can really process many things when it’s just the horizon and your
mind. And it’s also great exercise! It is an advantage to know your way around
though, as I have been humiliated a couple of times, by walking down what
turned out to be a dead end. When that happens, just make sure you do not make
eye contact with anyone and move along. If everything else fails, then run,
preferably while sobbing like a girl. The other aspect of this activity is when
I go on walks with friends (seems to be exclusively women, but who am I to
complain?). I really enjoy that, because I like to listen to stories. I’m
pretty reserved, so I really learn a lot about my friends when we go on these
walks. It was a bit awkward at first, because I am quite retarded when It comes
to one-on-one interactions with the opposite gender, but I’ve settled nicely in
the role as listener. At least I think so.
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| Can't you just taste the happy? |
Watching emotional porn on Youtube
This one
might be a tad strange. In some aspects of life I consider myself to be a little
anhedonic. I think it ties in to my inability to address critical emotions when
it comes to comfort and expressing romantic feelings. It’s grounded in fear,
but I covered that in another article. To alleviate this, I surf Youtube or
watch movies that provoke these responses. It’s really crazy, I know, but
sometimes you need to feel something really strong, and I seem to feel more
when I watch something “real” on video. If therapists were to read this, their
eyes would light up with dollar signs. I only do this, when I am home alone,
because my roomie is a brute and I would never hear the end of it! It’s also a
form of torture, as I envy those people for having the courage to do the things
they do, or having the loved ones, that they have. Here is an example of
emotional porn on Youtube:
Feeling relaxed?
Phew, was
that as good for you as it was for me? Probably not. I use this blog to vent
frustrations, share my happy moments and to figure myself out, which is really
hard to write about, without sounding like a broken wreck of a man. Before I
end today’s piece, I would like to thank all of the people who have commented
and encouraged me to keep on writing. I know some of it is weird and scary, but
I don’t care, I like sharing my thoughts and aspects of my life with you. See
you next time!
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